Still Holding Hands.
Brian gave me this card for our fourth anniversary. It's one of my very favorite cards I have ever received.
Many, many months ago I happened to have read several different blog posts written by various friends and acquaintances on the subject of their husbands. They were all very complimentary, almost to the point of nausea-inducing. And they made me think, kind of reflect I suppose, on my own husband and marriage. I love my husband immensely. I really do. I have loved him a ridiculously silly amount since we began dating and that love has grown and deepened. And I expect, as this is still only the beginning, that it will continue to, but reading those blog posts made me wonder, are your husbands and marriages as romantic and perfect as all that, for real? Around that time I asked my husband as we were driving in the car somewhere...
"Am I your best friend?"
"Ummmm, (I could tell he was trying to figure out what the right answer was and that he was trying not to laugh at me too hard), uhhhh, yeah, I guess, I don't know who else would be."
"Really? Truly?"
"Oh, wait. No. Gabe's my best friend."
"Oh, yes. I wasn't thinking of him. Of course, that makes sense."
This is Gabe and Brian flying a remote controlled bird at my parents' place five years ago last month. He is a good friend of ours from our dating and courtship years. In fact, he drove with Brian to Monterey on my twenty-seventh birthday to find me on the beach while I was watching the 4th of July fireworks. On the way he helped Brian to compose a poem to recite to me to make his proposal of marriage a little more memorable. It went something like this...
The sky is blue, a lake is blue, your eyes are blue, I really want to marry you.
I will forever be grateful for Gabe's influence in our early years, so he can be Brian's best friend. That is just fine with me.
While making plans for me to fly out to Michigan recently, Brian mentioned how he had to clean the apartment he was currently staying in for the rotation he was doing before he left to drive with me to the southwest corner of Michigan. He suggested that I might be able to help him. At which point in the conversation I was quiet for a moment and then replied, "Let me see if I understand this correctly, You are flying your wife halfway across the country so that she can clean your apartment for you because goodness knows she just doesn't get to do enough of that at home with your THREE small children. You, Mr. Taylor, can clean your own *#$@%^$$#^&%& #%^%#@**! apartment." OK, so in reality there weren't any expletives, but he laughed his my-wife-cracks-me-up-but-she-also-makes-me-a-little-nervous laugh and he cleaned his own apartment.
While on that same trip, but in Ohio instead of Michigan, we went out to dinner. We called ahead, made a reservation and still ended up waiting for a very long time when we got there. I was hungry. Sidon was restless. I got a little grumpy. Brian was smiling and being nice like usual. He looked at me and said, "Just stop. Don't be rude, honey."
To which I replied with simply a smile.
He just shook his head and continued, "Sheesh, sometimes I'm embarrassed to be with you when you're like this."
I laughed, "I'm not being rude. I haven't even said anything."
"You don't have to say anything. Your eyes just burn holes through people."
They did give us free dessert that was quite delicious, and I never did say anything and I never did reduce anyone to a pile of ashes with my laser beam eyes. And I forgive my husband for being embarrassed of me.
Brian and I are two very different people with very real imperfections and idiosyncrasies. In fact, at some point as we were driving from Michigan to Ohio I ended up exclaiming in mild frustration, "We don't really make a very good team! We really just don't. We don't communicate well, we don't understand each other, we don't work well together and we have completely different ideas about what should happen and how it should happen." Brian was laughing at me, yet again, and he tried to appease me by saying something about how we did make a good team when it comes to the really important things in life. And I suppose that's true. We have made three really cute babies together and we actually do agree on most things when it comes to raising those babies and we also are very united when it comes to our faith.
My husband sometimes drives me crazy. And even though I'm sure I have some redeeming qualities, my husband is often bombarded with my everlasting horrific perfected brattiness. That's the truth. But we still love each other. He's tall, dark, and handsome. And when he's particularly annoyed with me he'll tell me that I'm beautiful (I think it makes him feel better). And he has a bag for his scriptures made out of an oatmeal box and duct tape. It's one of the reasons why I married him.
Brian has a gift when it comes to working with people. Everyone loves him. He's charming and charismatic and nice and very, very convincing. He's good at sales. That's another reason why I married him (that he works well with people, not the good at sales part). The curse of his life, for here and everafter, is that the one person who he has the hardest time convincing of anything is his wife. Poor Brian. I'm super proud of him. He's done really well these past almost four years of medical school. I am glad I'm his wife.
Today was his birthday. He's well into his thirties now. Sooo much older than me. And I didn't get him a present. But if he's nice to me I'll make him an ice cream cake and give him a kiss when he gets home next week. Because he's actually coming home next week. And he's not scheduled to leave again.